Sunday, May 10, 2009

A letter to heaven

To the woman who bred me through my toddler years,

Happy mother’s day,mama.

How’s the reception in heaven? I hope its fast enough for you to read this. Do you know how to play a harp already?

I’m sorry it’s been long since I last talked to you, it’s not that I’ve forgotten you, it’s just that I’ve been trying to put it back at my head. Ah,busy life.

8 years ago you lost your battle against breast cancer. I know the pain's too much to bear but I wished you fought harder. It was so unexpected, why did you have to go?

Through times, our memories together have been washed. I'm no longer the girl who gets confused your family's mine, the baby who needs feeding and changing. My mummy tells me wonderful story of you, how lucky I was to have someone so patient like you to be my babysitter. Still, bits and pieces of here and there are gone missing.

But it doesn't take much in me to recall the warm breeze that brushed my face so ever tenderly when I was at your funeral. You made your presence felt and I heard you, I tried to stop crying but I couldn’t. It wasn't easy.

However, your baby girl's tough today.

Keep smiling from above.

I miss you.


Always with so much love,

Ah ping (:

5 comments:

Valerie said...

She'll be so proud of you knowing that you are studying in UK right now :) Cheer up and hugs. Mummy is coming over this Thursday, so many things to do, yet so little time :) but we are going to Vegas and Los Angelas, San Diego and San Francisco!!!!!

lalala said...

awwwwww.. *sayang*

ViviaN said...

haih..dad said its ok for me to go australia in july but she said cannot T.T dont know why also,padahal the airasia ticket so cheap nia :(


thank youuu jiokkk :D

michellesnoopy said...

BOLD up your "BABYSITTER"...

ViviaN said...

er..people i wasn't adopted..and...my mummy's my real mummy which means she's my biological mother and also the most important woman in my life and she's still so much alive..so don't worry..?

thanks for worrying anyway -_-
u gave me panic attack,geez no thanks for that HAHAHA ok lah i forgive ya'll sweethearts :O