Agony

I’m sorry for the lack of updates. It has been only a while yet it feels so long. This never-ending torture called life. I’m still trying to catch a breath under these piling journals and lab practical. Life cannot be any less dramatic. Sometimes I feel like screaming and crying out loud (plus banging), just like my neighbor who torments me mentally by doing so almost everyday. I’m sort of affected, got woken up a couple of times at 8 am (when I have to wake up at 8.40 am for my 9.30 am class. Annoying, no?). I’m not complaining, overall she’s nice to me. One day she asked, Vivian, do you think my life will turn out fine? That drained my brain juice, her issues with parents and a cheating boyfriend. Life.

Aside from that, the issue with my landlords- the priest and the lady chaplain is yet another pain in the ass. We just realized our parents cannot stay here when they come for our graduation (Why? Because he doesn’t like it; just like that). He doesn’t care whether your parents are from outside of Britain, that the folks know no shits bout here or whether they are fluent in English or not. What else can be done? He just doesn’t like our parents here. Speaking of which, I read a psychology site and it says this is probably guilt talking. To summarize the lengthy story, he cheated Melanie’s (Malaysian friend) £100 deposit. Since then, he never stopped picking bones from an egg (Chinese proverb). I’ve always asked God Why? Why among all places you put me in a chaplaincy to learn hypocrisy and racism? And then I realized, it is His way of teaching me how to be graceful, even to those whose knowledge in bible is 10 folds of mine, to those who frequent the holy place as much as I frequent the kitchen for food. He has His way; I just need to keep having faith. Mel’s right, never lose your ground and your beliefs.

And then there's bits of here and chunks of there. I'm sinking into depression. :(

The weather’s been crazy. I went for a jog the other day when it was 10 ˚C. It was lovely. No worries no nothings. The only thing I could feel was my pounding heart, nothing else. I felt so much alive.

On the other note, if a relationship started with hurting others, your relationship will never last. NEVER.

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Your prize is ......... a picture of me in my new hair-cut.

C’mmon it’s a good day!

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So,yeah.

The other day when I was broke (still am), I thought of ways to earn at least a few pennies. It’s not possible for me to find a job now that I’m in my final year. Then the bulb-thing-in-my-head-shone and I thought,Why not I sign up for Nuffnang?

Being a thinker as I am, I couldn’t help but wonder- What does it take to be a good blogger? How does it feel like to have your feelings expose to the world? What if I get famous?

So I came out with a list of the characteristics of some famous bloggers just to check if I’m eligible :

1. Brilliant English with the thick British accent. Haiya, my English like this. I bet a primary six student can write better. How lah sign up for Nuffnang..laugh die people.

2. Beautiful face/sexy body. Dawn Yang. Cheesie. Pinkpau. ....... I feel so ugly right now. Really.

3. A life that people would die for. Kinky Blue Fairy and her job. Suet Lee and her boyfriend.

4. Good sense of humor- Kenny Sia.

Despite failing miserably all of above, I loaded the page and Voila!It says my email address already exists (And I thought email addresses are unique like your fingerprints?)

Maybe, just maybe its God’s way of saying- You’re trying too hard.

Bye Narnia,Hello Newcastle.

I don’t know who else reads my blog, but if you do, you must either bored or have nothing else to do.wtf.

Anyway, I’m back from my Christmas vacation- 7 cities in 17 days. What a journey! I’ll pen down the details some time, not now but soon.

And if you’re unaware of it, Britain was in deep freeze. The black and white sight outside my window was depressing. But over the week the weather’s improving and the snow’s starting to melt! Hooray!

Ok, till the next post, ta!

P/s: I miss blogging.