催眠的话

若你碰到了　替我問候他
告訴他　我過得很美滿
已忘記他　已把淚水全部擦乾
若你碰到了　替我問候他
祝福他和他的另一半
不在乎他　不再愛也不再等待
就這樣吧　若你碰到他

就這樣吧

Little girl no more

I’ve always thought I can easily adapt to the outside world. Until I realized I’m just a miserable chameleon. – Vivian Tan

Sweet nothings

It terrifies me how the world spins like nobody’s business. Leaves turn yellow then brown and woosh they’re gone with the wind.

It’s winter time.

Again.

And in no time colorful flower buds are everywhere, the beauty of our world takes our breath once and again. Life's like changes of seasons; gloomy days always come with warm sun rays.

But being a demanding child of mother nature's, I've always hoped to travel back time to those spring-like days. Days when the future seemed hopeful, days when I felt so much alive, days I was actually happy. Its just as simple as that.And I swear I'd willingly trade just anything for those days. So I desperately pray for the impossible.

It terrifies me how the world spins like nobody’s business. Leaves turn green then yellow and woosh they’re gone with the wind..

There, it’s on repetitive move again.

Somewhere along the way, I waved a white flag.

Goodbye fantasies, hello memories.

Living your mistakes.

I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent...

Seriously serious

Ah, just why am I so grumpy. I’ve had another list of complaints yet to be posted.

Anyway, I guess I’ll just bore you with random stuffs.

The advertisement to Wooler (Lindisfarne,Edinburgh) is finally done. It took me a week to settle everything. I hope the trip’s successful just so my 3 giant zits come worth.

Yesterday was interesting! It was the usual 1 pm Analytical and Immunological method class. My adorable lecturer was unusually late. And all of the sudden this afghan girl told the class there’s an evacuation and apparently we’re the only ones left in the building. Rumor has it that there’s a bomb threat in the science building.

Aiyo, instead of panicking us girls took our sweet time packing and as we leave the building we were wondering whether the bomb’s gonna blow up like those action-packed movies where we fly into the air etc. etc. etc. Funny how I wasn’t scared, probably coz it didn’t make any sense. Bomb? In my lousy U? If I were in Cambridge U or Harvard U I’d probably pee in my pants. -_- Anyway!We called it off the day and went shopping later instead of class.

Hm.School.Year 3’s tough, as expected. Final year project is deadly. Its a pain in the ass.

On the side note, I cannot take my eyes off him:

http://www.northumbria.ac.uk/sd/academic/sas/about/biosci/biostaff/gb/

Enough said.

I’ll bore you with photos of my place next time. FYI I’m staying at the chaplaincy this year, along with 4 other lovely housemates- 2 Malaysians, an Indian and a Polish.

For now,this is the balcony. Ideal for basking under the sun :)

Snoopy, Peter and our regular guest.

Another 2 gorgeous housemates of mine ;)

Sigh.I looked like a hamster with my mouth stuffed full of nuts enough for 2 winters.

Ta!

Spirits alive

Are you as paranoid as I am?

Just how much people change; people you thought you knew so well when you close your eyes, you see sight of them right there and their scent seem to linger and their laughter so real it vibrates your eardrum.

Friends promised they’ll be there when you’re in despair, through ups and downs they vowed. Lovers swore to heaven and earth you’re the only one in their beating hearts.

One moment you’re in wonderland, the next your world is upside down.

They didn’t walk away.

The old them just..dissipate?

Miseries.

I spent my last half an hour on Microsoft Word bitching and whining about my current life, but I’ve decided to just suck it up and live with it.

Anyway, it has been 2 very long weeks ever since I came. And I’m still struggling.

My apologies for my dead blog but I'm back :)

P/s: I just weighed myself - gained back 2 kg within 3 weeks, and it took me 3 months to lose that.No wonder I felt my boobs sitting on my flabs.Shucks.